I've learned only a few things in my first week as a pappy. First of all, babies aren't like the rest of us. Most of us don't know what we want. We have so much stuff, so many ways to be entertained, so many different things to eat or drink, so many people to interact with to be strengthened or to be discouraged by, that with all of these things flying around in our head we can't seem to pinpoint what it is that we really want. Lillian's different. She only wants to be held, to be warm, to be fed & to not have gas. I'm not sure she even cares if she has a dirty diaper or not.

I've learned I'm not a very patient person at 3:00 in the morning. I want to hurry up, change the diaper, feed her, burp her & for her to be back to sleep in twenty minutes. I've come to learn it doesn't really work that way. I think Lillian can probably sense this frustration, so the problem becomes worse. I'm learning, though.

Christie is quite a bit better at sensing what Lillian needs than I am, thankfully. A couple weeks ago, if you would have told me that Christie would be up with me at 6:30 in the morning smiling contentedly & telling me how happy she is I would call you crazy. Motherhood suits her perfectly. She only gets about half the amount of sleep she used to, but she is okay with it. She knows how to take care of everything Lillian needs, & she enjoys it. She is patient, kind, gentle & I couldn't ask for a better mother for my daughter.

Five Favorite Songs of the Day

This Side of the Blue-Joanna Newsom, The Milk Eyed Mendor

Tangled Up in Blue-Bob Dylan, Detroit 2006

Whatever Gets You Through the Night-John Lennon

Hello in There-John Prine, Souvenirs

Naked As We Came-Iron & Wine, Our Endless Numbered Days



Happy Sunday, friends.

andrew